Peace, faith, gratitude

Last week we found out my husband got the engineer slot in the Air Force, we have been waiting for a very long time (last March) to find this out. And in waiting, it's interesting the things that have happened that have prepared me for my future as a military wife. Even after he put in for the slot I STILL didn't love the idea of the military. I struggled, really struggled. It's hard to explain the emotions felt but lets just say it was not something I dreamed about as a little girl.

Something changed in the last few months. I don't know exactly when it happened but I know what made it happen. My feelings of fear, anger, sadness, and abandonment have almost all but left me. In their place, I have deep gratitude and peace. 

Gratitude for my Heavenly Father, Savior, family, friends, strangers I've crossed paths with, and my country. Especially for my Heavenly Father and Savior. I put my complete faith and trust in them. My whole future. No back up plan. And in doing that one thing, they gave me more then I even bargained for.  Not only did the Lord take care of me and reassure to me that He will ALWAYS be there to take care of me but He gave me many life experiences that has taught me some very valuable things the past couple months. My perspective on a lot things has changed, and to that I am deeply grateful. My days are filled with more joy because of this perspective. I am more grateful for the little things. Like that old guy at the grocery store who stopped to simply try and make my son smile. He will never know that because of him and his friendliness, I'm not scared anymore to go grocery shopping (because of the shooting by my house).  Silly but really.
I am proud to say that I am still nervous, but I am excited. I'm excited to see what my future holds and happy to be a military wife. To support my husband and my country. I have faith knowing the Lord's plan for my little family is important and that He will always be there along the way.

Lesson Learned:
"I will not leave you comfortless, I will come to you." (John 14:18)
"Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid." (John 14:27)


A very very good friend of mine, some one who I look up to and that I hold very dear to my heart told this to me once (she knows who she is):

"Fear knocked
Faith answered
Nothing was there"


Faith is real. It works. The Lord is real. He is there. He answers prayers. And He will never leave us. I know that to be true because I have tried faith and have felt His guiding hand in my life. Even in the darkest moments. To that I will be forever grateful.

hobby or calling

Lesson Learned:

"Motherhood is not a hobby, it is a calling. You do not collect children because you find them cuter than stamps. It is not something to do if you can squeeze the time in. It is what God gave you time for."

-Neil A. Andersen

I am His daughter

I recently heard this song on the radio and fell in love with it.  The words are so powerful and have truly helped me feel of more worth and recognize my divine potential as a daughter of God.

Lesson Learned:

Be sure to push pause on the music below to watch this video.

*I am His Daugther*

The photos in the magazines

Don't dictate who I'm supposed to be

The world can't recognize, all that I am inside

But I know in His eyes, I am a part of, the bigger picture.

{Chorus}

There's so much more to me 

He helps me see that I have so much to offer 

I am His daughter

He loves me the way I am,

He's my strength when I stand

He is my King, and my Father,

I am His daughter

The People on the TV screen, 

The leaders, rulers, and queens

I watch them shape the world,

And though I'm just a girl, I still know for sure, 

That I am a part of, the bigger picture

{Chorus}

And when I'm feeling small,

 And wondering if I'll ever, find courage to stand tall

Through His love I remember

{Chorus}

(by,  Nicole Sheahan)

small but significant

Ok, so this past weekend we just had General Conference for my church (The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints).  For some reason this specific conference hit me hard.  So many things were said that I really needed to hear. If I wrote them all down in this post it would be a novel, so I will post my feelings on it one post at a time, whatever I feel to be right at the time. Today this felt right. 


Lessons Learned:
"My dear brothers and sisters, it may be true that man is nothing in comparison to the greatness of the universe. At times we may even feel insignificant, invisible, alone or forgotten. But always remember---you matter to Him!...
...no matter where you live, no matter how humble your circumstances, how meager your employment, hoe limited your abilites, hoe ordinary your appearance, or how little your calling the Church may appear to you, you are not invisible to your Heavenly Father. He loves you. He knows your humble heart and your acts of love and kindness. Together, they for a lasting testimony of your fidelity and faith...
...Brothers and sisters, the most powerful Being in the universe in the Father of your spirit. He knows you. He loves you with perfect love...
...God sees you not only as a mortal being on a small planet who lives for a brief season---He sees you as His child. He sees you as the being you are capable and designed to become. He wants you to know that you matter to Him..."
(Dieter F. Uchtdorf) His whole talk found here.


I am a wife, stay-at-home mother, beautician, sister, daughter, friend, and I serve in my ward as the Young Women Secretary. I live in a very small 1 bedroom condo. I am small and ordinary and at times I feel my life to be of no extra-ordinary significance... but I know that I matter. I am significant in the eyes of the Lord. I matter. You matter. I know this to be true.