Beautiful Heartbreak

Lesson Learned:

Lead me, guide me, walk beside me...

Once again my life is being compared to a song. I really do love music. I think it is a very soothing and therapeutic way to express your feelings. There has been a wonderful peace in my home since last Tuesday. Brian and I have had to make some very big decisions this past while and I think I have gained gray hairs because of it. If you would like to read more about these decisions click here. Look for the post titled "Decisions!" (fitting I know).  Emotions have been very high. Finally, Brian text me (last Tuesday) and said we need to go to the Temple. And so we went to find some peace. The Lord answers prayers. Peace was indeed found. I am happy to say that Brian and I have done all we can to put ourselves in the path the Lord would have us be on. It is now in the Lord's hands. (I'ts a little more comforting then having it be in my hands)We find out what path that will be next week. (We will keep you posted)  The point of this post is to say once again the Lord answers prayers. When you've done all you can do, He will lead you along.


Lessons Learned:

I WON'T LET GO

"It's like a storm 

That cuts a path 

It breaks your will 

It feels like that 

You think you're lost

But you're not lost on your own, 

You're not alone 

I will stand by you,

I will help you through

When you've done all you can do

and you can't cope

I will dry your eyes,

I will fight your fight

I will hold you tight 

and I won't let go

It hurts my heart to see you cry

I know its dark this part of life

Oh it finds us all and we're to small

to stop the rain

Oh but when it rains

I will stand by you,

I will help you through

When you've done all you can do

and you can't cope

I will dry your eyes,

I will fight your fight

I will hold you tight

and I won't let you fall

Don't be afraid to fall

I'm right here to catch you

I won't let you down

It won't get you down 

You're gonna make it

I know you can make it

Cause I will stand by you,

I will help you through

When you've done all you can do

and you can't cope

I will dry your eyes,

I will fight your fight

I will hold you tight

and I won't let go

Oh I'm gonna hold you

and I won't let go

Won't let you go

No I won't"

(Rascal Flatts)

Scroll down and listen to it if it isn't already playing!

You are loved, Don't give up

Recently I have come across some people in my life who are struggling. Some struggling financially, some physically, some emotionally, and some spiritually.  I have seen so much negativity, and yet so much optimism. Some stronger then others. To those struggling, not only the people that I know but to all. I'm sorry. Everyone in their life at some point has hardships.  The past couple weeks there has seemed to be so many people struggling I found myself overwhelmed. Trying to think of how I could help each individual and yet I know there isn't much I can do. Brian was doing something with the speakers for the TV the other day and suddenly they started playing REALLY loudly. But that wasn't want caught my attention, it was the song that was playing. To those struggling, to those who have struggled, and to those who will struggle in the future. Hardships and afflictions are for our benefit. The Lord gives them to us to strengthen us. I know that to be true.

Lesson Learned:

"You are loved (Don't give up)"

Don't give up

It's just the weight of the world

When your heart's heavy

I...I will lift it for you

Don't give up

Because you want to be heard

If silence keeps you

I...I will break it for you

Everybody wants to be understood

Well I can hear you

Everybody wants to be loved

Don't give up

Because you are loved

Don't give up

It's just the hurt that you hide

When you're lost inside

I...I will be there to find you

Don't give up

Because you want to burn bright

If darkness blinds you

I...I will shine to guide you

Everybody wants to be understood

Well I can hear you

Everybody wants to be loved

Don't give up

Because you are loved

You are loved

Don't give up

It's just the weight of the world

Don't give up

Every one needs to be heard

You are loved 

(Josh Groban)

What a blessing music is. I put the song on my playlist so you can scroll down to the bottom and click on it to listen to it if it isn't already playing. It doesn't matter the struggle your facing. Don't give up, because you are loved. Remember Christ and the Atonement. He knows all. He knows the challenges you face. He has faced them. So whether your struggle is causing you to lose hope and faith or whether your struggle has leaded you down the path of feeling guilty and not worthy of forgiveness, know that you are loved. He is there. He will always be there. You are always worthy of His love. YOU ARE LOVED.  So don't give up. 

I'll Stand By You

*Sorry It's a long one*
I remember when I was a senior in high school and it was that time of year where everyone was applying to colleges and pretty much making the choices that would affect the rest of their future. I knew I wanted to go to beauty school...but that was about it. I started to realize, as I was deciding where to go, that I would probably be alone. All my friends were applying to places where they could room together. It seemed I was the only one staying home to go to school. I thought seriously about going to a beauty school where ever my friends went so I could at least room with them.  I prayed and prayed, asking where I should go. When I got my answer I wasn't pleased. I needed to stay here and go to the community college for beauty school. I remember crying for days. Sounds dramatic, but really I was so sad.  I was so caught up in the fact that I wasn't going to be with my friends, I didn't take the time to think that maybe the Lord has a different plan for me that is better. I wanted the same plan as my friends. I even remember the first night they all moved away. My best friend called me and all I could hear was people in the background talking and laughing. My heart just sunk. Not only was I feeling alone because my friends had moved away, but I had also been struggling for a while with some choices I had to make and ended up breaking up with my boyfriend of 2 years at the time. Life couldn't have been more lonely. I asked my dad and bishop for priesthood blessings. So many blessings, comforts, promises. I heard it but I didn't seem to believe that all would be well. That I would make new friends. That I would be a mother and wife in Zion someday. That I would be ok. The Lord had a different plan for me. And with much humbling I was able to realize that that plan was far better then the plan I wanted. Sometimes it's easy to forget that the Lord really does know best. He can see the bigger picture. We can't. So why not put all trust in Him. Pride. Failure. Fear. If only we could always remember and have full faith in Him we wouldn't have pride, fear of failure, fear of stepping into the unknown. I ended up getting a scholarship which paid for my entire schooling. Blessing. I made new friends and to this day are some of the people I cherish most. Blessing. I went on my first date with my husband now,  after a week into school. Married that Spring. Blessing. I was able to find a job without any complications to get me through college, that I had for two years. Blessing. We we're able to buy a home after a year of being married. Blessing. I have had the opportunity to serve in many callings in my wards. Blessing. I have a sweet baby boy. Blessing. We have been given a grant that pays for the amount I would have made if I work so I can be home with my baby boy. HUGE blessing. (Coincidence, I think not.) I have been blessed beyond measure. I never dreamed that when I was given the answer that I needed to stay home and go to school that it was really because I needed to get married and start a family. The Lord has a plan for each of us. And He doesn't promise that we can see the out come. But He does promise that He will stand by us. All times. As long as we put our faith in Him.

 "Oh why you look so sad
The tears are in your eyes

Come on and come to me now

Don’t be ashamed to cry

Let me see you through

Cause I’ve seen the dark side too

When the night falls on you

You don't know what to do

Nothing you confess

Could make me love you less

I’ll stand by you

I’ll stand by you

Won’t let nobody hurt you

I’ll stand by you

So if you're mad get mad

Don’t hold it all inside

Come on and talk to me now

Hey, what you got to hide

I get angry too

Well I’m a lot like you

When you're standing at the crossroads 

And don't know which path to choose

Let me come along

Cause even if you're wrong

I’ll stand by you

I’ll stand by you

Won’t let nobody hurt you

I’ll stand by you

Take me in into you darkest hour

And I’ll never desert you

I’ll stand by you

And when, when the night falls on you, baby

You feeling all alone

You won't be on your own

I’ll stand by you

I’ll stand by you

Won’t let nobody hurt you

I’ll stand by you

Take me in into you darkest hour

And I’ll never desert you

I’ll stand by you

Oh I’ll stand by you

I’ll stand by you"

(The Pretenders)

Lesson Learned:

"Yea, I know that I am nothing; as to my strength I am weak; therefore I will  not boast of myself, but I will boast of my God, for in His strength I can do all things..." (Alma 26:12)

His Infinite Love

Lesson Learned:

To Make You Feel My Love

"When the rain is blowing in your face
And the whole world is on your case I would offer you a warm embrace
To make you feel my love
When the evening shadows and the stars appear
And there is no one to dry your tears I could hold you for a million years
To make you feel my love I know you haven't made your mind up yet
But I would never do you wrong I've known it from the moment that we met
No doubt in my mind where you belong I'd go hungry, I'd go blind for you I'd go crawling down the aisle for you
There ain't nothing that I wouldn't do
To make you feel my love
The storms are raging on a rolling sea
Down the highway of regret
The winds of change are blowing wild and free
But you ain't seen nothing like me yet
There ain't nothing that I wouldn't do
Go to the ends of the earth for you
Make you happy, make your dreams come true
To make you feel my love"